More "Conversations" With Gilad

I was saying Tehillim and right before saying Shir Lama'alot, I called for Gilad and we had permission from HaShem to speak again.

He is feeling hopeless again. He needed more spiritual "push".[+/-] show/hide text


He is crying inside so much and I told him to take that energy and turn it to Aba and to beg Aba to save him. We sat in the kitchen crying crying crying for his pain. He remembers his Pasuk and told me that he says it over and over and over again. We said Shir Lamaalot a few times over - crying - we both became so weak.

I told him that he's a high neshama and today is the hillula (yartzeit) of the Ohr HaChaim HaKadosh (he doesn't know who he is). I told him to ask the Tzaddikim, in their zchut, to go to Kise HaKavod, Aba, on his behalf and all his tfilot will reach directly to HaShem's without any klipot detouring his tfilla. I told him that his neshama is gigantic and HaShem is Av Rachman (merciful) is protecting him. He calmed down a little but asked him to cry more and to use this energy to cry to Aba.

I asked him to pray for Am Israel to be zoche to do Tshuva and Moshiach will come with mercy.

He knows Moshiach - he heard it before. He said that he will do it.

I told him I don't know if HaShem will permit me to come again but chasdei HaShem, Aba gave us permission today to speak about the greatness of HaShem - on the hillula of the Ohr HaChaim HaKodosh.

He didn't talk much, just crying and crying and crying. He asked how long will this last and I said that the moment he will feel true love and realization for Aba/HaShem, his "mission" is completed.

He asked to say Shir Lamaalot again.